Every time I read or hear that a cyclist in Anchorage has
been killed or seriously injured after a collision with a vehicle, I go through
the same roller coaster.
I fear first it’s someone I know.
I’m angered secondly knowing that there’s a good chance the
accident will receive little attention after the fact from the appropriate
authorities or the legal system.
In every instance, I’ve been lucky to feel a brief moment of
relief during this roller coaster, when I learned that the cyclist was not
someone I knew; before I went back to feeling frustrated and angered.
This time, that wasn’t the case.
I can’t say I knew Jeff Dusenbury that well.
Except for racing, I only shared one actual ride with Jeff,
but I wanted to say something about that ride, because I think it says a lot
about him.
Ride Notes: 12/17/2013
“Fantastic ride! Super
cold, 10 to 15 below. Rode down to ballfields and met up with Cipi, Theo, and
Dick. Randomly, Jeff rode through and joined us. Jeff and I were riding much
faster so we took off. Stuck to the FNBP trails as they were the best packed
in. Everything was great except brown bear, which was a little soft.”
The winter-edition of the Wednesday night group ride met up
at the Abbott Ball Fields Trailhead on a Tuesday evening when temps were
hanging out in the negative 10 to negative 15 range. It ended up being one of
the coldest rides of the winter, but the woods were beautiful: every tree was
coated heavily in feathery snow, and the trails were in excellent condition.
Given the temps, the ride got going rather hastily, as
riders who had driven to the trail head poured out of their warm vehicles
enmasse, and we all headed off into the night.
One of the things about riding at night, is that it’s nearly
impossible to recognize others. Bike lights are blindingly bright, and no one
likes getting high-beamed, so an effort is usually made to keep the lights
pointed down and away, leaving people no more than darkened silhouettes against
the inky blackness. It often takes a moment to figure out who is who.
In this particular group ride, it’s also not always clear
who will show up, and friends often invite friends.
I had noticed a rider who jetted across the lot and joined
us just as we rolled out that I did not recognize, but whoever he was, he was chatting
and riding along, eventually working his way to the front of the line, and
pushing the pace.
I still didn’t know him or recognize him after
several minutes, but he seemed very comfortable in the group, and I assumed he
must be friends with someone else.
As usual for this group, the ability levels of the
participants ranged, but with the temps reaching for the low-end of the
thermometer, stop-and-go pacing was getting uncomfortable, and this rider and I
kept pulling well ahead. At some point as we chatted, I asked which one of us
misfits he knew, and what he said next will forever stick in my mind.
“I was just coming out to ride on my own, and figured it’s
so cold I wouldn’t see anyone out here tonight. Then I saw all you guys and I
was like ‘These guys are awesome. It’s freezing out and they are still riding.
I’m going to ride with them!’”
Jeff was riding at a clip I really enjoyed.
After one last re-group, we decided to tell the others that
we were going to break-off and ride at our own pace. That suited the others
well, as they were ready to loop to the trail head anyway, so off we went.
Jeff and I alternated between hammer pace and conversation.
At one point he made a sly attack, keeping a wheel-length in
front of me and edging up the pace bit by bit until chatting was impossible,
then pouring it on just a bit harder. I was happy to oblige, and made a pass,
but he clung to my wheel for another 5 minutes before we finally turned it back
down.
Even in the dark, I could feel him smiling as we slowed and
caught our breath, laughing.
It turned out we had quite a bit in common. I realized that
I actually did know him, although mostly only through association from mountain
bike racing.
He did lots of road biking in the summer and enjoyed many of
the same rides from Anchorage to points north and south, he got down to the
Kenai to do long rides on the trails there when he could, and in the winter,
shared a love for both XC skiing and snow biking.
He was pumped for the up-coming Frosty Bottom, and he talked
at length about how much he loved this race, and the strategies he’d learned to
survive a fat bike event that shared more in common with road bike racing. He
assured me I’d love it if I did it.
Jeff wasn't just into pushing the pedal though, he could handle a bike. We decided to ride back
down Brown Bear Trail, which promised to still be soft and challenging.
I had only been riding a winter bike for about a month at
this point, and I was still figuring out the finer points of maintaining
traction in constantly changing snow conditions. Jeff was happy to offer up helpful
advice.
When I managed to clear a slippery bridge, he was cheering, a
bike length behind.
Eventually we headed back toward the trail head, and I had
to split off toward my house.
I never got to know Jeff all that well, certainly not as
well as I might have liked. I have no doubt that we would have shared a lot of
great rides together though, but that was just the person that he was. At his memorial service, hundreds attended. Many seemed to
share the same general feeling, whether they knew him as a cyclist, friend, business
partner, or just off the street.
The day Jeff was killed, he was riding to the same trail
head to meet friends, but sadly, Jeff’s bright light will never pierce through
the cold dark night ever again.